My cancer journey started on September 13, 2023. I have had multiple blood tests and scans. Waiting for results is like holding your breath, hoping for air but bracing for a wave. Every scan feels like a coin flip with my future on the line. Yet each test tells a story to the physicians caring for me – should I continue with chemo, what drugs should be used and at what dosage, is the cancer still active or is it gone. Blood counts, tumor markers and PET scan results – they all blur together, yet each one has the power to change everything. Living scan to scan feels like my life is measured in percentages and probabilities, not moments and memories.

It’s not just the results – it’s the days, sometimes weeks, of waiting. Even when the news is good, it feels like a temporary reprieve, like I’m still waiting for the other shoe to drop.

Despite it all, I’m still here, still fighting, still hoping and trusting God to give me strength, peace and clarity with each new day. I’ve learned to focus on what I can control – cherishing the small victories and finding joy in the moments in between scans and treatments. I realize each day is a gift and spending time with the people you love is what matters. Focusing on others and being a light for someone suffering takes your mind off yourself. I hope I will continue to try to do this everyday I have the opportunity.